Today, I saw a girl was getting beaten up by her mother. She was crying, alone. I asked her to come to me. Then a man said, his father died sometime before, and she says her father has gone to holidays.I instantly cried for you Bhavika. Remembering, I was your pillar of strength, which looked always. After going everywhere, you came to me, for support, for strength. You knew I was there for you always.Now, I'm not there. It pained me so much. Remembering you, always brought me so much tears instantly.&nbsp;I still says, I'm there for you always. These are bad times. I just wish that GOD gave your mother some budhhi that she understands that we two never had any relation but our kids needs their father too. I'm lying helpless here. But, Im fighting in court for your custody and visitation rights.&nbsp;Im far from you, but remember whenever you call me. I will near you, with you, for any kind of support.Forgive me my child, for giving this pain. Pain of separation.I love you, love you very very much.I believe in GOD, and Im sure he will help us meeting again, soon.&nbsp;

Bhavika... God will help us meet again...

Yesterday was my birthday. I'm 41 now.Im feeling as if I'm starting my life exactly 17 years ago. Searching for work, living a bachelor life, struggling for daily chores.&nbsp;

Im 41

Time has come to say good bye to Adobe.Team mates wrote some really nice words…<a href="https://www.kudoboard.com/boards/Znw9woaZ#view">https://www.kudoboard.com/boards/Znw9woaZ#view</a>&nbsp;Yesterday was my farewell… Will update more…

Bye Bye Adobe - Finally After 14 years - Farewell

She is sick these days, and she told me that you do not even call me to know about me. I went home, I do not feel like even see her. I try to ignore her.Even she know this. These days, its her brother wedding, that's why she is behaving normal. Else, she can not say few words with love.I feel like I'm done, what she has done over the years. I have nothing for her. I have told her this many times.Something is dead from inside.&nbsp;

I don't feel anything with K

We have so much friction in us, that we can not talk even for 2 mins.In almost every talk, either she or me gets so irritated. In my case, she just want her point to be implemented. There is no respect of mine. She always shows her irritated face.Yesterday, we have to buy cloths for Shivam's marriage. Ankit suggested her that we purchased it from jwalapur, it might be cheap as well. I told her, if we are going to see things, we can buy from here as well as time also is less. She straight away rejected, saying No. blablabla.After seeing the things, she talked to Ankit. Now she wanted to buy those things. I told her that when I told you you did not agree. She again shows her irritated and angered face. I just couldn't stand against her.&nbsp;Our grah never matched. I can not share my inner thoughts, what I feel, what I'm going through. It's so much frustrating at times, that why me GOD?

We can not talk for 2 mins - So much friction

I'm getting late daily in the morning. I do optimize/tune my time as per need. I getup at 5:40-5:45 in morning, get ready, then goto milk. I came to this routine after lot of experiments. I do this so that kids can goto school on time, and I also save some time.But, she always has a late time. If she has 5 mins, she will sleep. She wake up at a time, when she has no extra time for kids. If any kid do vomit or anything else, she doesn't have time. Everything will be hush hush.Even then, I'm getting late daily. I'm pushing her every 2-3 days, that please wakeup 5-6 mins early, what the hell will go wrong if you getup early. But no. She always has reasons, and ego to fight back.I know how rash and fast I have to drive daily due to her.&nbsp;

Kanika always do late in school time - Everything should be on or after time as per her

Its a Sunday morning. I was working my work as usual. She wakeup at around 8:45, came to me and asked to wake-up kids. I said, let them sleep. She said, Bhavika has a dance class at 11. I said ok, you try to wake them up in between.It was 9:20 when I went. I saw them sleeping. I just said, you could also wake up them up. She was like, I was coming.I hurriedly let kids bath. I dressed up Bhavika as usual. She did not prepare the breakfast even till 10:40. I did puja as well. I talked little, why the breakfast is not ready when she has to go. She was like, I'm preparing.&nbsp;Then, it was 10:50, and I had to shout a little. Why the hell you always do things on time or late. You knew she has to go. Breakfast is not ready. WHy the hell you could not get ready before time, why you always keep in hurry mode. ALways running. If you get ready 5 mins before, if things get ready 5 mins before, will there be any issue?The work which is mine, you never try to touch them as if your hands would burn. If I had to wakeup kids, you never try to wake up them up, if I bath her, you never try, if I help her dressed up, you never. I feed her breakfast, you never.&nbsp;In the meantime, I got the breakfast. I fed Bhavika, and I had to leave. I could not complete breakfast, not even Bhavika.&nbsp;I'm totally fedup with her late antics.&nbsp;I took Bhavika to dance class, came back after having her enjoyed in park. I saw, my plate of breakfast was open, without covering anything. I was again cursing my bad luck with her. SHe could not covered my breakfast as when I will come, I could eat them. That was all in bad condition.Too poor from her. And in all of this, there is no word like sorry from her. She infact shouted back about all this. Her ego always come between us.

Fedup with Her Late Time Management Habits

Last year was very difficult, in terms of money. I received income tax request of around 8-9L last year, plus house expenses. I bought a house, and its work was going on.Recently, I got a payment request for one of my investment in Bhutani property. It was for around 8L. I did not had that money. I mean, I had to sell my company stocks, or the indian stocks that I invested. Which I didn't want to.I was discussing this with Kanika, and I was feeling frustrated. She said, you can take it from me, and return in few months. I clearly said, what is the benefit of you earning. Why do I have to return it. isn't it your investment. For the first time, I said this to her.Her reply was, You have to manage house expenses by yourself. I again said, why I need to return then. And, what do you mean by trouble. Do I need to be a begger to ask you for money.&nbsp;She had no reply! I also moved on, I knew no point of arguing with her.I had to run this family, and I will. God bless us.But, it will always be a point of frustration for me. I spend lot of time in her business, to build for her. But, I get nothing. She sometimes pays for her suits, to which she proudly says I buy it from my money. I was about to ask, what about my money, its not mine, its us. But, your money is yours.It feels bad to have a spouse who earns for herself, not for family.&nbsp;

What is the benefit of her earning - I finally asked

Either you don't invite people to your functions, or if you are inviting people, then invite them well.

I have encountered many situations where its kind of problematic situation whether to go or not. The other person has not invited well.

So, the person is Raman, a distant relative. I don't even has his mobile number in my phone. There is a marriage function of his son. He invited my brother well, who lives in other city. Now, he is coming in Noida, and asked if he invited you. 

That person sent me a whatsapp message, which contains only a pdf. No Hi/hello, No other message. The person has not even his profile photo in whatsapp. I generally ignored these kind of messages. And, I ignored it.

My brother asked, whether you got the card. I said no. I checked, that. invitation was his. I also did not even reply, as if I would reply he might put a message to come. 

But, this is very bad practice of inviting people like this.

A well invited invitation means, at least you call the invitee, and asked him/her to come. What do you mean by a whatsapp message. You are completing your duty, so that when someone asked you did not invite, you will say I have invited. WTF.

I got a call few days back in evening. It was not hearable at all. I could recognise him, and said Namastay. I said repeatedly, your voice is not coming. He simply cut the call, and did not call. I waited for his call.

OK, next morning, I called him back at around 11. He said, bete ki saai hai. I said, Many congrats. And, he again cut the call.

He never said a single time, that you are invited or you have to come. How can someone go like this. 

An Uninvited Invitation

Although, this is my hobby project, and I'm thinking of going ahead in this.

Today, I bought another name: lifeinreel.com

I have some ideas in this space. Lets see.

Lifeintext Next - Life in Pics/Videos

I've been thinking of divorce. Yesterday night, I watched few videos of divorce. How to take, about kids. Effect on kids.
Whenever, I think of separation, I think of kids. I can not stay. away from kids. But, when she does her usual anger stuff, I felt so frustrated that I feel my life is also important. I also saw importance of sex in marriages. We have no sex life. I do not remember last when we had sex.&nbsp;
I learned that kids do also suffer in a bad atmosphere. It's better to take divorce than stay in an unhealthy relationship. Kids also saw us fighting. What they will learn about relationships.
I feel that I'm just a few steps away from taking this decision. I'm feeling so intolerable of her.&nbsp;
She is so dominating that I feel suffocated.&nbsp;

I'm thinking of Divorce

&nbsp;<h2>Stylish Afghani Salwar Design: Where Tradition Meets Trend</h2>When it comes to blending heritage with haute couture, <a href="https://giadesigner.in/afghani-salwar-suit/">Stylish Afghani Salwar Design</a>&nbsp;steal the spotlight. Rich with cultural flair and timeless elegance, these outfits are more than just traditional wear—they're a bold fashion statement. Whether you’re dressing up for a festive celebration or just love making a statement with ethnic fashion, Afghani salwars are the perfect blend of comfort, style, and tradition.<h2>What Makes Afghani Salwar So Unique?</h2>Afghani salwars are known for their flowy silhouettes, pleated pants, and heavily embroidered tunics. Rooted in the tribal aesthetics of Afghanistan, these outfits often feature:Intricate threadwork and mirror embellishmentsVibrant colors like maroon, emerald, turquoise, and mustardLoose-fitting, ankle-length pants with wide pleatsStatement necklines and heavily worked sleevesThe standout feature? The Afghani salwar pants—often fuller and more dramatic than the regular salwar, offering unmatched grace and movement.<h2>Trending Afghani Salwar Styles in 2025</h2>Fashion keeps evolving, and Afghani salwar designs are no exception. Here are a few trending styles that are turning heads:<h3>1. Boho Chic Fusion</h3>A fusion of Afghani design with bohemian elements—think tassels, earthy tones, and oxidized jewelry. Perfect for music festivals or casual outings.<h3>2. Mirror Work Glam</h3>Embellished with hand-done mirror work and paired with a sheer dupatta, this look is ideal for sangeets and wedding events.<h3>3. Pastel Minimalism</h3>Modern Afghani suits are embracing softer shades like blush pink, mint green, and powder blue, with minimal embroidery for a sophisticated look.<h3>4. Jacket Style Kameez</h3>Add a front-open embroidered jacket to your kameez for that royal Afghani princess vibe. Works beautifully with both flat sandals and juttis.<h2>How to Style Your Afghani Suit</h2>Pair with Afghani jhumkas or chunky silver earringsAdd a belt to cinch the waist and modernize the silhouetteKeep makeup earthy—think kohled eyes and nude lipsLet your hair flow or braid it in a traditional fishtail for added flair<h2>Final Thoughts</h2>Afghani salwar suits are a celebration of culture, comfort, and creativity. Whether you're reviving your roots or just exploring ethnic fashion, there's an Afghani design for every soul. So next time you're looking for something unique yet timeless, give these regal ensembles a spot in your wardrobe. Trust us—you’ll look like royalty with roots.

Stylish Afghani Salwar Design

&nbsp;Discover the Wild Beauty of Odisha: A Journey Through Its National ParksOdisha, a vibrant state on India's eastern coast, is not only known for its rich cultural heritage and ancient temples but also for its lush forests, scenic landscapes, and thriving biodiversity. Nestled between the Eastern Ghats and the Bay of Bengal, Odisha is home to several national parks that serve as havens for wildlife and offer unforgettable experiences for nature lovers. Let’s explore the most prominent <a href="https://orissatours.com/wildlife-sanctuaries/">odisha national park</a> in Odisha and what makes each one unique.<h3>1. Simlipal National Park</h3>Location: Mayurbhanj District Best Time to Visit: November to JuneSimlipal is the crown jewel of Odisha's wilderness. Spanning over 2,750 square kilometers, it is a part of the UNESCO World Network of Biosphere Reserves. The park is home to majestic tigers, elephants, leopards, and over 230 species of birds. With rolling meadows, thick sal forests, and cascading waterfalls like Barehipani and Joranda, Simlipal offers an untouched paradise for wildlife photographers and trekkers alike.<h3>2. Bhitarkanika National Park</h3>Location: Kendrapara District Best Time to Visit: October to MarchOften referred to as the "Mini Amazon of India," Bhitarkanika is a unique mangrove ecosystem located along the Brahmani and Baitarani river deltas. It is one of the best places in India to spot saltwater crocodiles, including rare white crocodiles. Boat safaris take you deep into creeks and estuaries, where you can also see monitor lizards, spotted deer, and a dazzling array of migratory birds. It’s a birdwatcher’s and ecotourist’s dream.<h3>3. Nandankanan Zoological Park</h3>Location: Bhubaneswar Best Time to Visit: Throughout the yearWhile technically a zoo, Nandankanan also includes a botanical garden and is recognized as a sanctuary. It is famous for its successful white tiger and gharial breeding programs. Unlike typical zoos, Nandankanan blends seamlessly into the natural forest, giving animals a more natural habitat. The safari rides are a hit among visitors, offering a chance to see lions, tigers, and bears in open enclosures.<h3>4. Satkosia Tiger Reserve</h3>Location: Angul and Nayagarh Districts Best Time to Visit: November to MaySatkosia is where the majestic Mahanadi River carves through the Eastern Ghats, creating dramatic gorges and serene riverbanks. It’s one of the few places where you might spot both tigers and gharials. The reserve is ideal for eco-tourism, with options for river safaris, tent stays, and birdwatching. The blend of riverine and forest ecosystems makes Satkosia a biological hotspot.<h3>Why Visit Odisha’s National Parks?</h3>Rich Biodiversity: From mangroves to mountains, Odisha’s parks offer diverse habitats.Eco-tourism Opportunities: Sustainable tourism initiatives support local communities and conservation.Adventure and Relaxation: Trekking, boating, wildlife safaris, or simply soaking in nature – there’s something for everyone.<h3>Tips for Travelers:</h3>Always hire a certified guide for safaris and treks.Respect wildlife – avoid littering and loud noises.Book accommodations and park entry passes in advance during peak seasons.

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Odisha National Park

&nbsp;<h2>Explore Dublagadi Beach – Odisha’s Hidden Gem</h2>Tucked away from the typical tourist maps, <a href="https://orissaguide.com/bagda-sea-beach-dublagadi-balasore-odisha/">Dublagadi beach Balasore</a> is a peaceful escape where nature whispers and waves gently lap the shore. Just 30 km from Balasore and around 245 km from Kolkata, this untouched coastline promises a perfect blend of solitude, scenic beauty, and raw coastal charm.<h3>How to Reach Dublagadi Beach</h3>By Train: Catch the HWH SC SPL (02703) from Howrah to Balasore, departing at 8:35 AM and arriving around 11:38 AM. For the return, SC HWH SPL (02704) leaves Balasore at 1:53 PM and reaches Howrah by 4:53 PM.By Road: From Balasore, you can take an auto (₹600 approx) or hire a cab (₹1000–1500) to get to Dublagadi.<h3>Things to Do at Dublagadi Beach</h3>Sunrise &amp; Sunset Views: Watch the horizon come alive with stunning shades of gold and crimson at dawn and dusk.Leisurely Beach Walks: Take long, calming strolls across the wide sands and spot vibrant red crabs dancing along the shore.Camping Experience: Spend the night under the stars at eco-friendly spots like Galaxy Nature Camp—simple, scenic, and soul-soothing.Meet the Locals: Chat with the tribal communities, discover age-old fishing methods, and enjoy freshly fried fish with zesty Kasundi mustard sauce.Catch the Blue Tide: On new moon nights, witness the mystical glow of bioluminescent waves—a rare, unforgettable natural phenomenon.<h3>Where to Stay</h3>Dublagadi offers a range of budget-friendly stays, mostly eco-camps and cottage-style accommodations. An average overnight package costs around ₹1,300 per person, making it a great pick for backpackers and families alike.<h3>Best Time to Visit</h3>Plan your trip between October and March, when the weather is cool and pleasant—ideal for beach outings, camping, and exploring nearby spots.<h3>Nearby Attractions</h3>Bagda Beach: Another serene beach close to Dublagadi—perfect for a quiet afternoon or picnic.Kasaful Estuary: A peaceful riverside location where you can enjoy fresh seafood and observe local fishing traditions.&nbsp;&nbsp;<h2>&nbsp;</h2>

Dublagadi beach Balasore

i cooked an actual meal for myself. it was imperfect but delicious, like life.there was smoke and the food was a little burnt, a little too spicy. but i have learned what to do the next time i cook, for this one dish.

april 25th, 2025

&nbsp;Exploring Odisha Through Its Map: A Journey into India's Eastern GemOdisha, nestled on the eastern coast of India along the Bay of Bengal, is a state known for its rich history, stunning architecture, diverse wildlife, and vibrant culture. But to truly understand the depth and diversity of this beautiful region, one must start with the map of Odisha—a visual gateway into its geography, districts, heritage, and hidden treasures.<h3>1. Geographical Overview</h3>Odisha covers an area of approximately 155,707 square kilometers. The state is bordered by West Bengal to the northeast, Jharkhand to the north, Chhattisgarh to the west, Andhra Pradesh to the south, and the Bay of Bengal to the east. The map highlights a mix of coastal plains, rolling hills, dense forests, and fertile river valleys.<h3>2. Administrative Divisions</h3>The state is divided into 30 districts, each with its own unique identity and cultural significance. Major districts like Khordha (home to the capital Bhubaneswar), Cuttack, Puri, and Sambalpur play a key role in Odisha’s political, cultural, and economic life.Bhubaneswar, the capital city, is known as the "Temple City of India."Cuttack, the former capital, is rich in history and craftsmanship.Puri is famous for the Jagannath Temple and the annual Rath Yatra.Koraput and Malkangiri showcase Odisha’s tribal culture and natural beauty.<h3>3. Natural Landmarks</h3>Odisha is home to a variety of natural attractions, all easily identifiable on the map:Chilika Lake, Asia’s largest brackish water lagoon.Simlipal National Park, a tiger reserve and biodiversity hotspot.Bhitarkanika National Park, known for its mangroves and saltwater crocodiles.The Eastern Ghats, which run through western Odisha and offer rich biodiversity.<h3>4. Cultural and Historical Sites</h3>From the map, you can trace the trail of Odisha's glorious past through sites such as:The Sun Temple in Konark, a UNESCO World Heritage Site.Lingaraj Temple in Bhubaneswar.Udayagiri and Khandagiri Caves, ancient Jain rock-cut shelters.Dhauli, associated with the Kalinga War and Emperor Ashoka's transformation.<h3>5. Tourist Circuits and Travel Routes</h3>Using the map, tourists can plan circuits like:Golden Triangle: Bhubaneswar – Puri – Konark.Tribal Tourism in southern Odisha (Koraput, Rayagada, Malkangiri).Eco-tourism around Chilika Lake, Satkosia Gorge, and Simlipal.<h3>6. Why the Odisha Map Matters</h3>For travelers, students, and researchers alike, the <a href="https://orissatours.com/odisha-of-map/">Odisha map</a> is more than just a layout of land—it’s a guide to exploring a state that balances tradition with progress, spirituality with natural splendor. Whether you're planning a trip or studying its demography and development, the map offers valuable insights.Final Thoughts Understanding Odisha through its map is like unfolding a story of ancient kingdoms, sacred temples, lush landscapes, and a resilient people. Whether you're visiting for its beaches, temples, or festivals, let the map of Odisha be your first step toward discovery.

Odisha Map

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Upcoming Amazon Sale

i grew up in a place without buses, or perhaps a place where i believed that the buses were not meant for me.now i meet the driver's eyes as he tells me to move to let other people pass. now i press the stop button when someone can't reach it. now i awkwardly wave someone more attractive to me toward an empty seat. now i feel more awkward when they let me have the seat.now i am surrounded by people that i don't know, people that i will probably never see again. i am lonely. i am in awe. i want to make connections but can't make the first step.

I'm thinking of Divorce

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