Heyyo!! I feel totally bad...very very bad and am here to vent everything duh! Where do I even start?! So far it hadn't been good and now it's too bad. What are you worried about you ask, I would say "what not to WORRY about". Everything is a mess....now the lyrics I'm a Mess, am a loser, am a hater, am a user- sync in perfectly. HAHAHAHA. I can't just go and be transparent, telling everything to someone. Because it feels sooooooo worse. The emotions are mixed. I want to cry but am angry. Am worried and patting my own shoulders, bluntly believing that someday everything is going to be alright. 

Being all happy and joyful for 3 days and the 4th day comes some bad news followed by hard to bery hard days on the 5th and the 6th. Then I would feel nothing on the 7th day - a system shut down. 

I have read somewhere that the size of our hearts is equal to that of our palms. Not sure if that's true, but if that is the case, then it's a wonder. Common, how much can such a little heart bear? Its keeps on getting heavier every day. 

Just....just want to cry out loud, but I can't. If I do, then there is going to be a soul who is going to be worried about me. She might start thinking that she is building up extra burdens on my shoulders. But it's okay. I am okay and I want her to not just be okay. I want her to be happy.    

Am realizing a lot of things lately. From the outside, everything and everyone looks so good. But we will never know what we are enduring. If only I had someone who would never ever judge me or my lifestyle, I wouldn't be here....hehe. But it's not that am in some kind of depression or that am alone. No no. Not at all! I have everyone- an amazing family who are always there protecting me and fantastic friends..well, I have earned great friendships all the years, who are always there as my backbone, and also a big source of power- my ANPANMAN, my Wonder Woman. 

Okay so now I would like to put an end to my ranting....to conclude on am awaiting PEACE *showing you the V symbol*. Don't worry about me, am alright..really...completely alright. Nothing's wrong. Everything good!

*THE END* to my first write-up                                                                        *Clap clap*

My first write up!

So far, we haven't asked Daksh to bring some stuff for house from a shop, by himself.

Yesterday, I asked him to get a packet of Poha from the society shop. He was excited, and kept smiling by thinking about it. He feels good by doing responsible things.

I gave him the money, ask to bring Rajdhani Poha, count the change, come back. If found any trouble, just come back, do not go outside the shopping arcade.

Inside, I was also worried about him. He went well, and brought it well. 

He felt proud. But, the thing is that the Poha he brought was having lot of worms. It was none of his mistake, its due to the weather, these things are caught by worms.