Her angry frustrated face becomes a routine
Today, I had to goto collect rent and buy some stuff for our flat. I took kids along with me as well. So that Kanika can get some free time. Its a big ask to take two kids and handle them. I took them anyway.
I had to drive for 25 kms, goto that house and take rent while kids were in car. I purchased some stuff from a hardware shop. It took me around 3 long hours. If you ask me that Kanika cann take kids alone with her. She can't. So, consider a difficult task.
I came back at around 3PM, hungry, tired. I casually asked her, so you must be happy and relax as kids were not here. She replied rudely in nher usual frustrated tone, no way, I was quite busy in my work. Her tone makes mood bad. I was like, come on when is the time that you will say you were happy or relaxed. Anyway, I didn't say anything to her and went back to living room.
She also came back, she drank water and never ask me to have it when I came back tired. I took it myself and sat. She asked food, I told her that let me pay Sudhir his payment. Sudhir was our carpenter doing our flat work. She came back again, and asked food. It was 3:10 PM, quite higher thann our usual time for lunch. I knew she is asking me to come with her in kitchen and prepare my plate. I replied back in anger, come on its time of food, cant you see. WHy are you asking again and again. I didn't say that you meant to call me in kitchen. I knew that. She was like waiting for it. She blasted on me saying what did I ask. I said, didn't you see its time for lunch. She went back in anger and made plate.
I never ever remember that she prepared plate for me in love or with respect. I could see i ger eyes, whenever she has to make plate for me, her anger, her frustration that she has to make food for me. I could see all that.
I just say to her, due to these reasons I don't talk to you much. You love these heated discussions, or arguments. Can't you leave things on which we argue, but no. I just left in other room and slept. I usually do not sleep in after-noon. My mood became so bad that I wanted to forgot all that and slept.