Grief

Does grief ever end?

Lost my mum April 4, 2022. That day is forever engraved in my heart. She was my backbone and motivation. The reason why I wanted to be better in life, my confidence and everything.

Losing her made me stop leaving. I sought for death in several ways and hoped to sleep and never wake up all to see my mum once again. My life has been a complete mess. I'm in lots of debt and feel direction less. I have low self esteem and her siblings and my cousins treat me anyhow cause I have no mother.

My brother is the only one I have and I feel bad seeing him struggle through life but I'm helpless as well.

I'm just existing and not living.

Can't wait to see my mum. She's my life.