I can't feel my broken heart. It stopped yearning for connection with people. Even for the connection of the closest people around me , my family. striking up a conversation has no taste any more. instead I had built walls , high walls that wouldn't let any one intrude in , even for a good cause. I congratulate my self for this decision , for that resemble nothing less than power. I do not dependent on people's availability, willingness, and more important of them all, approval to make me happy. happiness comes from within , a broken record that I put back together , piece by piece and play and even dance too , solo . without the need to be accompanied, fixing my eyes and heart up ward. that should be my route and destiny. amen.